Why did I dream about you last night? Just when I thought you wouldn't enter my mind anymore, you came back. At the click of a finger. 

You dominated my subconsciousness. Why? Because you can.

I wish it was as easy to rid you from my thoughts as it is for you to enter them. But it ain't. 

Thanks for all the fantasies. 

New year. Woo fucking hoo.

Right now it's 1am, and I was just reading through my old posts on here that I wrote so many years ago... Well, 4 years ago to be exact.

I was a little kid, just venting his frustrations on an electronic blog. Not that anyone really gave a shit, except a few people that I knew who found certain things I said interesting. 4 years later and so much has changed. Ohh so much has changed.

Where can I start? I don't know where to start to be honest. Right now I feel wrecked, sleep deprived and honestly I am half way through a midnight workout. (Just taking a cheeky computer break hehe).

I've finally gotten a chance to sit down and write something on here this week as I've had a hectic week which involved the acts of getting "turnt up" and "shitfaced" as it is more commonly known in our society these days.

The main reasons for my intoxication though are very simple, more down to the fact that one of my new years resolutions last year was to cut all alcohol consumption to a bare minimum... And as I had succeeded in making that come true (I got drunk less than once a month this year as opposed to going out every week or 2nd week and getting plastered at nightclubs).

If you told me to tell you one thing that I've learnt in these past 4 years, I couldn't think to tell you just one damn thing. I've learnt so much and you know what? I'm happy with what I've learnt. But there is still yet so much to learn, and so much to experience.

Every year I say I will fuck certain people off out of my lives, and stop giving so many chances to every rat, dog and absolute scumbag on this earth. And every year I still give second chances, and third chances, and fourth chances to people who don't deserve it.

I have lost so many friends and made so many friends in the past 4 years. I have ended relationships and friendships with people I never would've imagined it possible with, but hey.. It happened. And that's life. But I moved on. And I guess that's one of the main lessons I've learnt in these four years now that you mention it.

Just fucking move on. Stop dwelling over things that could've been, should've been and would've been. Because you know what? They didn't happen.

We are all living in the present, so why should you live in the past? Why should you let imaginary scenarios dictate the way you live your life? I think that is one of the problems in today's world, especially the youth. People can't let things go. (I'm definitely guilty of this).

People will experience one thing and let it ruin their lives for long periods of time after it.

If you asked me what my number one goal is for this year, people who know me personally would assume quite a few obvious goals; getting my license, travelling to Europe etc.

But I think my main goal is going to be to stop procrastinating shit and just fucking DO things. I think I should start living on the edge a little bit more. I always wanted to live spontaneously, however my friendship circle does not allow for many spontaneous activities to take place. So fuck my friendship circle. I will be spontaneous alone.

To be perfectly honest, I do not imagine I will have alot of time to update this blog that often this year with the stuff going on in my life as I am planning on having a big year, and quite frankly I don't even know how many people read the thing anymore anyway. However, I do envisage myself contributing at least to the growth of this blog every now and then and I will try to at least write something interesting here and there for you lot to read.

I honestly don't know what my intention was with this post, and frankly I don't give a shit. My writing may be a little rusty as I don't write as much as I used to, but hopefully I didn't bore the living daylights out of you with my completely random and utterly pointless post. :)

Till we meet again,

C

It would be nice to hear those three words from you every once in a while.

So now that she's gone,
Embrace all that come,
And die with a smile,
Don't show the world how alone you've become.

Oh it's you again

You know they say real girls ain't never perfect, and perfect girls ain't real...

And you know what? They're right. But if I know one damn thing, it's that you're closest to perfect as can be. Why are you so close to perfect? Well, I mean for starters we can talk about anything. We really have convos about nothing. We have conversations about meaningless shit, but the conversation means the world to me because it's with you.

I dream about you sometimes. But usually it's because you're always on my mind before I fall asleep. Your arms are like home to me. I miss home. I want to be in your arms again. But you're far, far away. Out of my reach would be an understatement right now. But I swear by it, I will be in your arms soon... And if not, you will be in mine.

I saw you the other day. Wasn't really for long, but it made me think. I saw your beauty first hand, for the first time in a while. I kissed your soft cheek and you had your arms around me for a second. Altogether I think I only spoke to you for about a minute, but you know what? It made my day. Just seeing you and hearing your voice made my day.

And you know what else? Having you in my life makes me that much happier... More happier than you could imagine. Doesn't matter how shit is right now between us, because you bring light into my life just by being apart of it. And for that, I thank you. Goodnight xo.

Why am I single?

I want a girl to tell me when she doesn't like something I do, just so I know she's not afraid to be real with me. I want a girl who's her own self, just so I know she doesn't give a fuck what others think. I want a girl to get over me after going out with her for 2 years, just so I can fight to win her and prove to her how much I love her. I want a girl to start an argument with me one day during a storm and walk off on me, just so I can chase after her and kiss her in the rain.

Diced Pineapples (My version)

1:50am, and I'm bored AF. Why the fuck not?

Here it goes anyway. It ain't finished tho, coz I'm fallin asleep as I write this so goodnight lol.


You ever loved someone, not just unconditionally,
To the point where you were the visionary.
You prioritised them, when you were just an option,
A small part of their heart, just a tiny portion.
But you felt you deserved more, just because they held more,
The difference between the love was like the rich and the poor.
You couldn't compare, coz the feelins weren't there,
Coz she was havin an affair, and she left me no air.
I could barely breathe, she took the life outta me,
Imagined taking her down the aisle, to pronounce us as 'we'.
I really don't know what more I can say,
Don't know if I can go on like this everyday,
No wonder every time she came over we'd skip foreplay,
Bitch I should've knocked you out like Cassius Clay!
Always in a rush, and no time to discuss,
If I ever see you, I'll be tempted to concuss...
Your sorry ass head, should've left you for dead
The pain you caused me, better left unsaid.

The girl crazy man, pussy was the best,
Picked her straight up when I passed my driving test.
I nearly lost my life, but I'm glad I learnt
The way I got hurt, I was severely burnt.
Shouted her to dinner, then I popped the question,
She'd rejected me twice, that I forgot to mention.
Third time lucky, and I know it sounds ridic-,
But I couldn't let her go, I loved the way we'd click.
She holds a place inside me now, but I want it gone,
Don't know where to start, so C's just movin' on.
Happiness is everything, baby welcome to the truth,
Y'all want hope in the future, then better put your hope in the youth.

Miss Thursday

I used to think that you was mad,
Used to think you were the best I ever had,
But what I learned is true,
Theres other girls than you,
Tell me 'bout our memories, what the fuck is there to share?
Tell me 'bout all the times I needed you, and when you weren't there.
Tell me 'bout our empty history,
Tell me 'bout your sudden mystery,
We used to go out and it was like you were on display,
Every guy used to stare, it was a ritual every Thursday,

I can't say I wasted my time, just that the feelins are no longer,
But I can imagine from our experience, you must be feelin' stronger,
I bet you can kiss better, bet you make love better,
But I guess the real question is, girl does he make you wetter?
There's a point where you realise, who's worth the effort,
And who's not, in other words you only gon' get hurt,
For real I learnt alot from ya, and that includes the past,
But if one thing's for sure, you definitely won't be my last,
The day you messaged me, it sent through an uncontrollable feelin',
How did you read my mind? You kept me up at night, starin' at the ceilin'

Sometimes you sent me crazy emotions,
Sometimes I'd wanna massage your body with lotion,
Sometimes I couldn't bare the sight of your name in my phone,
Sometimes I wished you'd leave me the fuck alone,
Sometimes I would lie to you when I didn't respond,
Sometimes you'd believe me, are you really that blonde?
I know I'm doin' your head in wit the word sometimes,
And you so probably used to me writing these rhymes,
Half of 'em bout you, the main woman I had in my life,
The woman I always thought that one day I'd call my wife,
Now you nothin' but a stranger, and strangers are danger,
The day we went our seperate ways, was surprisingly nothing major.

This ain't the life for me, I'm a Melbourne born player,
My ex best friend still doin' his thing, he's probably gettin' gayer,
And I don't wanna change the subject, so let's not get to that,
But you can't bring me to life anymore, the spark has gone flat,
It's funny how no other woman got this deep into my head though,
It's funny how every other woman gets treated like a hoe,
It's funny how I sit here and reminisce on the past,
It's funny how I when you went home I met other girls so fast,
I could sit here and go on, while I sing this song,
I could make it really long, and I know I wasn't wrong.

It was like an experiment we both wanted, we both knew the reason,
But now it's winter girl, you forgot it's cuddle season,
So I'ma go my way, and you go yours,
I wish you the best, I know you're better than them whores.
So hopefully you understand the message that I'm tryna convey,
I know there's nothin' between us, but I always got luv for Miss Thursday.

Yesterday you held me. It was the best feeling in the world. Well, it sure felt like it anyway. You know they say when you can comfortably share silence with someone, and not feel the need to constantly talk shit so there's no silence... That's when you've found someone special. It feels like that with you. Special. Not just the time I spend with you, but you in general. You are special. In a million ways.

Sometimes I just wish I could hold your hand in public,
But daddy doesn't want you kissing a dropkick.
Sometimes I wish I could just wrap my arms around you in the street,
Or kiss you before you get on the train.
But I'm a man so I won't sit here and weap,
I'll just hope that you understand my pain.
The hours with you are spent like seconds,
But it's been worth it coz you taught me many lessons.
A year ago things were different, it felt like the old days.
Every week now I don't give a fuck, I just want Thursdays.
Sometimes I wonder if my heart's going through another craze,
But then I realise now it's all new and your guard's up, so I sit here amazed.
You still confuse me more than any other girl, older or wiser,
And deep down I know, the girl who has feelings for me... You despise her.
I wouldn't call it jealousy, but then I don't know if you trust me,
So I'll sit here and try explain it best I can, to see if you agree.
You don't want her to have me, but you'd rather not say.
For if you fall for me, then fall for you I may.
Maybe one day you'll believe me, that I'd rather it be us,
I want to call you my own, and possess your trust.
I wouldn't call myself religious, but as I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord, my soul to keep.
And if I should die, before I wake.
I pray my love is yours to take.

Because of you

It's that time of the night. And I'm thinking of you again. Man it's been years since I actually felt like this. That cold, empty feeling of trying to sleep without having spoken a word to someone who means alot to you. The person you've spoken to every single day lately. The person you feel you can open up to and just let everything out to like a never ending river.

You know, time has a tendency to go slow when you miss someone, or when you don't speak to them. I feel like time is travelling ever so slowly right now to be honest, and it's not a nice feeling. I guess the same applies to when you're having fun with someone, time flies... Like it did the other day when I was with you.

Seeing your face in the flesh for the first time in so long was more than beauty to my eyes, more than beauty to my mind... You just allured me. And I hope you will continue to allure me, and strengthen me. Forever.

And now I'll try and get some sleep. But don't worry, the bed bugs ain't gonna be biting me. Coz with you I'm invincible. Haha.

Goodnight.

The only woman a man can trust in his life, is his own mother.

No matter the situation, never let your emotions over power your intelligence

If only you knew I was one step ahead of you.

Tell me who your friends are and I'll tell you who you are.

No regrets? Yeah, right.

I hate people who say they have no regrets in life. Everybody has some regret in life, whether it be one or a thousand, it's only natural to learn from regrets. One of the most important things you can do in life is not feel ashamed of yourself for regretting something. Regrets teach us where we went wrong and how to deal with something the next time around, or how to teach others. Regrets are the pinnacle of a learning process in which we call life. Regrets mean so much more than you think.. So next time you regret something, don't feel ashamed. Regret it, then regret it even more, and tell yourself over and over why you regret it. Then learn from it, and move on.

There are people who were put on this earth to live the hard live, and people put on the earth to live the easy life. The ones who live the latter of the two are the ones who understand how to appreciate things, whilst the other group of people are the ones who will never fully understand the concept of achieving a goal through hard work and dedication..

That's my $0.02

Y'all girls are the same as us guys, playing the game with the hope of winning. But y'all might ask, how does one go about winning 'The Game'? Well it's simple really. Everyone has a different view of 'The Game' and the way to win. But winning is whatever you think it is. To me, you know you've won The Game by being satisfied when you reach the end of your life. It's about being happy with or able to accept how your life's turned out, or to be contempt with your life. So when you girls go out and get dressed nicely and put ya shoes on and you put ya make up on, do not try and argue for one second that y'all don't hope the man of your dreams or a man fitting enough to play that role will be wherever you're headed to. When y'all girls go partyin wit each other and y'all wanna doll yourselves up to look good, don't give me that "fuck guys" bullshit. Coz the majority of y'all will be glad to kiss some spunk or to give some cute guy ya number with the hope of something good happening between the both of y'all, unless of course you just a hoe who's happy to do anything. And that's my two cents ;)
Peace

I want a girlfriend I can take pictures with. A girlfriend I can lie on the grass with. A girlfriend I can go for a drive with. A girlfriend I can listen to music with. A girlfriend I can watch movies with. A girlfriend I can snuggle up and go to sleep with. A girlfriend I can go out to dinner with. A girlfriend I can laugh with. A girlfriend I can smile and be happy with.
:)

It starts with the eyes. She's gotta have those eyes you can look into forever. That smile that just makes you fall at the knees. That voice that makes you melt when you hear it. Having style is a must. She's gotta have the heart to stay true to her man. And she's gotta be able to make me laugh. That's my kinda girl.

My main goal in life is to turn my dreams into reality.

The only religion I believe in is myself.

What's love when someone doesn't feel the same about you?

Is love actually anything if it's only one person that carries feelings for another? Really? If there is such thing as love, surely it would have to flow both ways to work, just sayingg...

Just something I wrote.

I believed that there was no such thing as perfection,
you came along and gave an answer to my question,
the question being whether a girl could change my view,
but you only made me weary, stronger through and through,
ain't no such thing as Little Miss Perfect,
you ain't nothin' more than a fucking object,
just a girl who's gon create a conflict,
a girl who's easy to predict, that's just my verdict,
a bunch of mind playin' bitches,
they all out to get your riches,
like a 6-4 Impala, I'ma hit the switches,
I'm in control now, laughin' at ya glitches,
used to be times where we'd sit and take pit'chas,
but you ruined it girl, so I had to be the ditcher,
used to play games, yeah you liked it didn't you?
Thought we were stuck together, stronger than glue,
but it's okay, I'm not cryin', I don't need a tissue,
you were a waste of time, you were my main issue,
I bet there's some other guy, somewhere out there,
but little does he know that you don't really care,
everything you's do is nothin' but your way,
if he don't like it you gon' make him hit the highway,
that ain't fair bitch, you got a few screws loose,
a girl like you, once fucked, there's no use,
coz all you do is play these stupid fucking mind games,
you set the fire and let them burn in your flames,
with me it didn't work, I was 1 step ahead,
could sit and cuss, but some things are best unsaid,
either that or there's no point, coz you probably in bed,
sleepin' all day while he make money for the bred,
me and him ain't so different, our daddy's were potheads,
know how to fend for ourselves, dedicated purebreds,
we ain't full of shit, can differ from right and wrong,
but where he falls flat is when he sees your thong,
if you think you gon' control him, girl just think again,
I'ma tell him how it is, and you don't needa know when,
you a waste of space, a bitch who's careless,
I'ma buy you a badge that says Fake Princess,
you say you're the girl of his dreams huh? Prove it.
The smile should be wiped off your face, just remove it,
so boot your ass on outta here, just move it.

When you say you love me, what is it that you mean?

So I'm back. Had what you'd call a disagreement with someone just before.. Someone close to me. They believe for some unknown reason, that I write about the word 'love' like I've had a long relationship experience, or that I write about the word like I'm 30+ years old.
No, I do not write about the word acting like I'm 30 years old or older, because I'm not even a two thirds of that age. But yes, I write with experience to a certain degree, but mainly opinions, thoughts, speculations, and my beliefs.
Just thought I'd clear that up..

Do YOU believe in love?

So I'm guessing you do. As most of you do who question me on the topic and challenge my thoughts/opinions.
You believe in love do you?
Well, why do you believe in it?
Is it because you're currently in a relationship that you believe is never gonna end?
Is it because you think it's the cure of all problems and you're just brainwashed by romance movies?
Why?
:)

Something that's always confused people... Why is it that alot of the time, when something is within easy reach, or something is throwing themself at us for example, we tend to take it for granted and either make use for our own benefits only, but we do not seem to care for the other party's feelings, or of other benefits. yes, there are nice people, who would argue that they never do this and never will, but we're all guilty of it in one way or another. Then, when we want something, that is out of reach or someone who doesn't feel the same way about you, we feel like we want it/them more. Most people, given a choice between the two, would choose the person or thing they want more rather than the person who wants them more, and yes that would only be natural you say, no matter how much thought you put into it. I would love to be able to answer why we do this one day.

I refuse to believe in love unless someone can prove me otherwise.

You don't know what love is, you just have this idea in your head.

The majority of you just believe love's when you meet someone, and you hang out with them, get to know them slowly, and eventually you get to a point in your head where you like them in a certain way and develop intimate feelings for them, and it gets to a stage where you think about them more than ever, when you want to be with them as much as you can, and you all call it love. You all think you've "fallen in love". Some people say that this "love" lasts forever. But others say it doesn't, and that it can destroy you within a split second. Truth is, you aren't in love. You haven't fallen in anything. How can you prove that this is love?
What about divorces? And break-ups? Ever considered the amount of those in this world today? Whoever said true love lasts forever honestly talks a load of shit. You know why? Two reasons, first reason being that nothing lasts forever, and second reason being that there's no such thing as love.

And that's my two cents.

Loves the way girls sit and complain all the time about guys being such flirts when half the time they're just as bad and talk to as many guys except they just keep it quiet..

Girls who take photos with a good camera and automatically think they're God's gift as a result of it... Who you kidding?

...

What happened to the good old days? All the girls and boys hung out together, there was no groups and gangs and enemies and awkwardness between people.. Now the boys stick together, and the girls stick together, and there's groups within each gender.
You might ask yourself what happened to these times.. But I believe we all just grew up.

That word. The word that has everyone confused, the word that has others depressed, and the word that has others living the happiest moments of their life.

Finding love is impossible. Why? Because there is no such thing.
Us people have been brainwashed with this unmeaningful word.
Cos everyone has their own definition of this word.
Kicks people down, and somehow it can bring them back up, or at least they believe it does.
It's merely a thing that people believe can solve their problems, although it can't, because it's not real.
Nothing but a myth, something fake, which has never been proven to be a real thing.
Gets people going I guess. It really makes people do sometimes the most stupidest of things.
Love is nothing to some, and love is everything to others.
Our minds are brought up with the thoughts that we will all one day find our one "true love".
Very confusing thing you are. Wait, did I just say thing? So love IS something? Hmm. I'm tripping !
End opinion here.

Those nights where you sit there with a certain song on repeat...

Need I say more?

Those people who are far from what others like to define as perfect, but still have that special something about them..

New year, same problems.

One year ago today, I started this blog.

So it's the one year anniversary of this blog.
One important day has passed now. Well, people like to call it important.
It's not thaaaaaaaat important. Like, c'mon, start of the new year, big shit..
Big fucking deal.
People just use it as an excuse to celebrate, which is fine in my opinion, don't see anything wrong with it.
Shit new year as usual.
Sitting here on the computer on New Year's day in the early hours of the day.
Nothing special.
Not like it used to be.
You go out, same old thing, same old people, same old fun, same old trouble,
nothing will change.
I'll leave it here for now.
Catch.

2010. Wow. What a life changing year. The amount of things I've done this year, the amount of people I've met, the amount of people I've booted off, the amount of things I've learnt, the amount of pain I've been through, the amount of happiness I've experienced, the amount of problems I've caused, the amount of people I've helped, only God knows what 2011 will bring me.

So yeah. I've got no phone. Bit of a pain hey?
It's not as bad as you would imagine.
Well, yeah sure, I can't text all the people I usually text, and I can't call people when I'm out, or listen to music on the tram on it.. But hey. It's not as bad as you think. Life's so much more.. Peaceful I dare say.
I haven't gotta pay attention to my phone going off all the time. Haven't gotta deal with people's shit when they feel the need to bust my balls.
Ah. Best life.

Staying Strong (Wrote this a while back)

You broke my heart, you tore my soul but I just kept goin',
straight to the floor, I fell down hard with the tears flowin',
not gonna whine and bitch about how much I loved ya,
I was in love, some say whipped but I'm now above ya,
can't take it any longer so go head put it behind you,
I'll find someone, didn't take me that long to find you,
waste of cash, waste of trust, waste of all my time,
it felt good to have you with me, just to call you mine,
but fuck it now I'm moving on never to look back,
as red as my heart was you just turned it black,
but in time I'll revive from this heart attack,
it wasn't faital but it damn sure made me think,
I cried so much alone I even washed out the sink,
back in the game now livin life as a single man,
enjoying my life, doing anything I know I can..

This blog...

It's really quite funny, this blog. Well, not so much funny, more interesting. You see, at the time I started it, I wasn't in what I'd call a happy state, it was New Year's Day, and I was at home, pissed off. Mind you this was really early in the morning. All I felt like was writing a few things that I wanted to get off my chest, and hey, now it's turned into like a little story sort of thing. It's my life. It's my feelings. It's my views. It's my everything.

Now it's not far til the next year which will be a year since I started this, I'm curious as to what next year has in store for me. This year I've experienced noteable changes within myself, my confidence, my actions, my views and whatnot.

I've gone through alot of shit this year that I would never have expected to, but hey, I guess alot of people have, and that's part of the non-stop cycle of life on this planet.

Crying...?

I've mentioned this before. I first mentioned it 11 months ago. Yeah. I haven't cried in 4 years. Next year will be my 5th year without shedding a tear. Wow.
I don't know what it is, yeah sure, there's been times where I probably could've cried in the past 4-5 years, but hey, I just don't cry. Why's that I keep asking myself?
Not sure.
Something about me wants to cry. Sort of like a way of getting everything out.
But then does crying really help to get everything out and make you feel better?
I mean, all it is, is water dropping from your eyes and a wide variety of emotions running through your mind, mainly negative emotions, but at times positive too, and this equal balance between the two is what keeps us from crying usually, but sometimes we go off balance, either to something too positive or something too negative, and people have been known to "shed tears" as a result of this.
So why do people say crying helps?
I guess I'll never know unless I cry again and see how it feels...
But hey, when am I going to cry?
Will I ever cry?
If so, what will I cry over?

All in due time...?

Oh the things that love does to you !!

Best lyrics?

Ay yo the sun don't shine forever,
but as long as we're here then we might as well shine together,
never mind the weather,
go somewhere and get our minds together,
build a love that'll last forever,
so let's stop the pain,
stop the rain,
put, stress to rest,
girl stop the games.

One thing about life:

The one girl you end up thinking is Little Miss Perfect, never ends up so perfect after all.
:)

As much as I can argue for and against this, I had to post it!

Every girl thinks that they can change a player but the truth is, it's not the player that needs to be changed, its the girl because every player is on a misson to find that one girl that makes him lose his desire to play the game...

I need to stop being rude to people, especially girls.

Old thing I found...

One night the moon said to me,
"If she makes you cry, why don't you leave her?"
I paused for a while, and then looked back at the moon and asked the moon:
"Moon, would you ever leave your sky?"

My theory...

Now, alot of you people might ask yourselves; Why are the ugly people so good in relationships, and why are they so nice? Why are the good looking people the ones who you don't tend to work out with? Why are they the ones who tend to cheat more?
My answer would simply be this:
The better looking people, people with more talent or people with bigger egos tend to get used to the popularity, attention etc too easily, they tend to take advantage of it by doing things such as cheating.

Where as on the other hand, the not so good looking people and unpopular people don't get the chances that these so called good looking or "cool" people get; Instead for example, they get leftovers of people who have been hurt, they get desperate people, they get all sorts of people.

But who's to say, if the not so good looking people were actually what society considers "hot", or "cool", who's to say that these people would not take advantage of the so many more things they get offered in life?

Life is what you make of it.

that one point in your life where you realise you're on your own, always have been, and always will be

I don't think it's possible to go to the city without at least seeing someone you know there. Ever.

This goes out to all the girls who take 352432321454 of the same photo and upload them all, and to the girls who make 43234123214 depresso statuses, you can all go and drown yourselves in the Yarra River.

Some of the things that have happened in my life seem unbelievable to me sometimes, but I guess life's like that for everyone, everyone overcomes some obstacle or does something they never thought they'd do, which makes the thing that seems unbelievable actually believable, and that's life.

What does sorry mean?
Does it mean you did not want to do something when you say you're sorry for doing it?
Does it mean you know what you did was wrong and harmful but you still did it anyway?
Does it mean you didn't mean to do it and you know it was wrong?
How do we know what other people say when they say they're sorry...?
Sorry doesn't mean anything, there is no such thing as being sorry.

I neeeeeeeeeed a holiday now! Gaaah what I'd give to get away from this place for a whileee.

I think too many girls have gone to the Melbourne Show, bought one of them helicopter hats with all the colours, and taken a photo with one on their webcam.

When girls act like hard bitches, it is a deaddddddsetttttt put off !

it's amazing how things can change so much when you fall for someone

true?

Why do people have like my photo and I'll like yours back as their status? If someone likes you they'll like it? Why click like when you don't like it?

If you get with a girl, and you're together, at least in some respect, or seeing each other, and she gets with someone you know, like a mate, then unless she's a fulllllll-timeeeeeeeeeee sluttttttttttttttt there is no going back !!

It's easy to fake a reaction, and it's easy to hide emotions, and it can be even easier to deny the truth, but you can't do anything about your true feelings.

when 2 best mates chat up the same girl it actually makes me laugh!

Deadset haha.

It's amazingggg how songs can remind you of people and bring back memories you never thought you'd remember..

Hmm, truth?

Ever sit there and wonder how people who don't have a million friends or know a million people are always glad to get to know you and be your friend? You know why? It's not always because people who have lots of friends get over it and sick and tired of knowing too many people, but often because people who have friends take this shit for granted. They think everyone's gonna be there for them no matter what... Yeah, right. Not to mention the fact that they think knowing a million epeople will always help them, but guess what, it's not always going to help you. It'll only help your head grow along with your ego until the day you become a real adult (in this case not 18), and it all comes crashing down, and you realise you've got yourself and no one else. Fuck 'friends'.

Wow, I wrote a mini love story..

An example of how everyone's views are different...


A girl and a guy had been going out with each other for a year, and surprisingly, they hadn't once told each other they loved each other. However, the girl had played like it didn't matter, and after a year, she got so fed up with her man not telling her loved her, so she thought she'll be straight out about it, so she told herself,
"Fuck it, I'm gonna tell him how I feel, and if he doesn't love me, I'll move on."

So she struck up the courage one day, and after dinner, she went behind him, and told him she loved him. The man stood there, confused, looking into the distance through his kitchen window. After a brief pause, he turned around to face his girlfriend.
"I wanna tell you something, but don't know if I should...", he said.

She insisted that he say whatever was on his mind. So he told her:
"When you tell me you love me, I don't even know what you mean, in fact I don't even know what love means altogether, who's to say there is even such thing as love? Sure there's a word, and that word is love, but it's a word that cannot be defined in a simple definition, it's a word that everyone brings their own meaning upon. I don't even know if I believe in love, but I'll tell you this. I want the best for you, I'll always be there for you, I'll always put you before anything, I'll always be thinking about you, and you'll always be apart of me... But I can't love you... Because I don't know how to."

And in saying that, the woman smiled the biggest smile she'd ever smiled, and kissed him.

"That's what love is!", she said.

In all honesty, some girls deserve to be bashed !

Falling for someone?

One of the most fascinating things about life, is the ability for a human being to 'fall for' another human being. Or to develop strong feelings for them. Or to 'fall in love' as some people say. Call it what you want, but realise that the reality is amazing.
See it works like this: Attraction is the sensation. You become attracted to someone, whether it be their good sense of humour, their fashion sense, their good looks, the way they make you smile, no matter what, it's the attraction that leads to the deeper feelings later on.
You might think, no one can help who they fall for, and in a sense it is kinda true, but hey, you can help who you fall for in another sense, because depending on what you've set your 'taste' to or who you're attracted to, then that's one thing that will contribute to you falling for someone.

This is excellent!!

"You wanna play the game? It's like this: You play around, you have fun, you share secrets, you tell stories, you cry on eachother's shoulders, you hold hands, you think about forever. But you don't fall in love…because the first one who does, loses."

Now tell me you don't like that.

You can't move on? Aw, why not?
Can't forget everything you guys used to share? Why's that?
Keep failing to erase their face from your mind do you? Howcome?
Still think of them before you fall asleep every night? Whyyyyyy?
Are you in LoVe? Haha.
You think you're in love.
Just like most people do.
You wish you were in love,
and that you could live happily ever after without a single flaw.
:)
But the real questions are;
What's love?
Who invented that word?
Why did they invent it?

xxxx

And it's all coz of that one little thing that we don't exchange words anymore.

Throughout my life, I've wasted a significant amount of time on girls in general. Ha ha.

Lmfao.

We all chase with the hope of catching.

True or what?

Dunno about you, but I don't fall for girls easily. Why's that?

TRUE FACT

Sometimes doing the WRONG thing in someone else's eyes, is the RIGHT thing in yours.

Life's confusing

First of all, people confuse me. Guys and girls on a whole. The way our minds think are all different. That's why everyone is different in some way. Whether it be in looks or the way they think. And as a result of these differences, the best and worst things can happen... It can result in the best of friends, an ongoing relationship, a fight, or even a falling out.

See the thing is, people don't understand, that everyone sees certain things differently, whether it be seeing things in a good way or a bad way, there's always going to be a different outcome, and that's the truth.

Sometimes, good things can happen between the people involved in the 'conflict', sometimes bad things. Quite often, the people involved want the good things to happen rather than the good things,
and when the bad things happen such as an argument or the two not talking, it doesn't leave the best of feelings I can assure you.

Haha, yeah NAH

The amount of guys that have told me infront of a girl to respect girls, to look good infront of the girl or to get into their pants is fucking hilarious. I love the way girls fall for that shit. Guy sweet talks, guy gets in. Deaadddddddsettttttt! Haha.

Life's average at the moment.
Nothing new, nothing special.
Same old dramas, same old conversations with people, same old everything.
WANT TO DO LIST:
I want to go on holiday.
I want to delete every girl off my Facebook because they do heads in.
I want to find a decent job that I'll be able to wake up and want to go to!
I want to be happy more.
I want to start writing songs again.
I want to hold someone in this cold weather.
I want to be able to watch all my new movies on the big screen at home. :(
There's alot of things I wanna do, and as easy as they seem, they're hard in their own way.

When a girl says 'ily' instead of I Love You, you KNOW shit's going down. LMAO.

Most people wouldn't have the balls to say half the shit I say.

True fact.

best lyrics..

I don't wanna flip when I see you with guys,

Too much pride,

Between you and I,

Not a jealous man, but females lie,

But I guess that's just what sluts do,

How could it ever be just us two?

Never loved you enough to trust you,

We just met and I just fucked you.

To apologise or not to apologise?

Is it true that apologizing doesn't necessarily mean that you're wrong or the other person's right, and that it just means that you value your relationship more than your ego?

Came across it... Give it a think, because I know I am.

No such thing as friends.

There's no such thing as friends. Friends are an illusion; what we mistake that are actually close aquaintances. Fuck friends. What are they? They aren't anything. There's no such fucking thing.

Crossroads? Turning point? I think not.

Many people in this world claim they come to a so called 'turning point' in their life, where everything changed, or they reached a crossroad, and made a decision to go in a certain direction in which their life would follow...
I beg to differ. There are an infinate amount of turning points and crossroads in our lives, they do not come once in a lifetime as many people seem to think, they come every single day of your life;
When you wake up, you make a decision on what you're going to do; You go to work/class, you do what is expected of you; you stay home, then you suffer the consiquences.
Every decision is a turning point in it's own way, and if not, a crossroad, because every single decision leads to another decision which leads to another decision which ultimately is the journey of life.

Hopefully you'll understand that it's not as easy as saying you're a bad person and then all of a sudden you realise what you're doing is seen as wrong in society and that you just change your attitude and view on life and start taking different actions on things, it's every little part of your life that's been building up to this event; besides, just deciding to do good isn't the only turning point, actually doing good is another turning point, because it shows you have the initiative, so in actual fact, every decision and event in your life no matter how big or small it may be will contribute to the final result in some way, think about every little thing.

every girl desires a player turned good

Is it just me or does every year of our lives feel a slight bit faster than the previous?

In life many people call you their friend. To me there's 3 distinct groups of 'friends', besides the people who aren't your friends. The friends who you hang with or see, the electronic friends who you text or speak to on MSN & Facebook but don't speak to in person, and the people who think you're their friend or you just pretend to be friends with.

So little has changed but at the same time so much..

Looking back on half the shit I was doing I can admit I was at fault but it takes two to tangle and I know you were too.

When I say that no one in this world is my friend, and no one is yours either, I mean it.

Define a relationship.

this is for all the stereotypical people: it's not 'bogan' to support Australia in the World Cup and it certainly doesn't make you a yobbo, after all we were all born and still live here, right?
I mean put your ethnicity/background before anything if you wish but at the end of the day it doesn't hurt to show pride in living here.

Once a slut, always a slut.

Why do guys rate girls 10 on Facebook ratings? To make them happy? Lol, what does 10 necessarily mean? Perfection? Ha there's no such thing as perfection.

If you believe that you will succeed, success will become reality.

I like this quote, but sadly it's not always true.

that one word 'LOVE'

Everyone has their own meaning of the word love. Everyone believes in a different definition...
I'm trying to work it out just as much as you are, but for the meantime, consider this.
In the end, it could all come down to love being a game in which the players are our minds, and it could be a never ending game with no winners or losers.
Love.

What is love?
Love is nothing.

Girls talk shit to guys just as much as guys talk shit to girls, and use know you do you're just in denial..

I will be remembered

It’s such a travesty,

the way you say our love should be,

yeah, such a tragedy,

think you can just break my heart and leave me,

well you better run...

Oh, man on the run,

playin’ for fun,

wind me up,

leave me undone...

I'm not the best looking guy, I'm not the funniest guy, I'm not the best thing in the world, I'm just Cliff, and Cliff is all I'll ever be, and you know what? Nothing I can do about that, nor do I give a fuck either, live ya life babyy.
:)

I've always wondered whether there's such thing as 'me' inside me, or is it our soul that's the prime controller in which we see ourselves. I'd say it's the brain that controls our body in which we interact with things physically, although what controls our brain.. or our mind in this case? Is it our soul?
Is our soul the thing we see as ourselves?
Is there such thing as ourselves?
Or are we all just human beings with different modifications and names given?
Are we just born to believe we're a real person and that we have values, interests, likes and dislikes?

Think about it.

There's no such thing as imperfections in people, nor are there perfections, because no one is perfect, and no one is imperfect, and this is simply because everyone has different opinions, views, expectations, and things that they desire, and we can never come to a simple conclusion to define something as 'perfect', because there will always be someone who disagrees.

Life isn't you and your friends, it's you and mainly a bunch of aquaintences who call themselves your friends.

The worst feeling is, when you look at who you think are your mates, or who you thought were, and you realise you can't call them your mates.

You want a war? Motherfucker I ain't hard to find! ♫

fuckkkk y'allll

FUCK EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU SNITCHING LYING DECIETFUL FUCKING DOGS!!!! YOU LIVE ALONE IN THIS WORLD ANYONE WHO CALLS YOU THEIR FRIEND TALKS COMPLETE FUCKING SHIT YOU LIVE IN THIS WORLD ALONE, A L O N E NO1 HAS YOUR BACK NO1 IS THERE FOR YOU OR ANYTHING, NEVER TRUST NO ONE IN THIS MOTHERFUCKING BITCH OF A WORLD!!!!!!!

You know what I like about life? Life. You know what I hate about life? Life.

Cops are fucking pigs

And they know they are. Just because we ran away doesn't mean we comitted a fucking crime. We ran coz you guys were all of a sudden coming after us, and we didn't wanna risk getting in trouble for no reason or for something our mates did, and for you guys to make us snitch them in.
Banging on our cell doors all night but being ignored.
Busting for a piss but not being allowed.
Kicking the doors with all our force but what do you guys care?
Hitting the walls hurting ourselves to get your attention but not like you guys give a shit.
Screaming for your attention only to have you guys do nothing?
Pressing the emergency button a million times but to no fucking avail?
WHAT IS THE POINT OF HAVING AN EMERGENCY BUTTON IN OUR FUCKING CELLS IF YOU'RE NOT GOING TO ANSWER WHEN WE PRESS IT?
Blaming us because we're the first people you find for a crime?
Not believing anything we say?
You fucking piglets!!!!

.

yee dw bout me lol

If you're as low as you think you can go, then it can only get better.

Sorta true I reckon..

don't you just love the way everyone's drifted apart, we've all gone our seperate ways never to be the same again? Except, that's just the constant flowing stream of life..

Who better to share your dreams with than the person you dream about?

this time I'll let you do the talking.

Girls

You know what I find funny about girls?
No matter what they look like, or who they are, or what their personality's like, there's one thing;
if they play hard to get, they're more attractive.
Don't ask me why.
I find it funny how sluts can capture guy's minds, just because they aren't talking to a guy, the guy wants them more.
I guess this ties in with the theory of when we can't have something we want it more.
Haha.

I can't stand the thought of losing this, but I guess I'll keep my head up anyway.

Broken heart? Hmm.

I'm not sure if I've ever had my heart "broken".
What does it even mean to have your heart broken?
What circumstances must it be under or how far must one take something to break someone's heart?
Clearly everyone has different views on this.
Another question, once a heart's broken, can it be fixed?
Does it heal itself on its own over time?

I'd say the closest I've come to either getting a broken heart or just being 'hurt', is the story about my ex.
Haha.

I'm not giving up, I'm letting you go.

Girlfriend? Nah.

I find it funny how I don't fall for girls that easily. Well not so much funny, but funny in a sense of different if you understand that...
I'd expect to have fallen for more girls in my life by this stage.
I guess everyone's different in their own way.

Hmmm, not your type am I?

Call me different.

Found this and I liked it

Let's face it... we've changed. We all changed. Somewhere between summer ending and school starting, we've all gone in our own directions. Hearts were broken, friends diminished, new love started and new people came into our lives. We no longer spend all of our time in our circle of friends, we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. We've changed -- some for the better, some for the worse. Some of us are finding love and others are trying to let go. Even though we've changed, we all know that even though we're all finding our own place in the world, that when we find out love, when we let go of a love, when the tears fall, or the happy smile spreads across our face... We'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us and no matter what happens, nothing will ever change so much to the point that we're not all friends forever.

Threw this together in like a minute..

You confuse me so often, what's to see?

Is it that you care, or never to be?

I'd love to read your mind,

know what you think of me.

"What's meant to be will always find a way."

Really now? Well that's only if everything in our life is set out to some point. Like a storyline.
Fuck off just live your life.

listen to me :(

try it for once.

imperfection?

Found this part of our convo interesting.

She says:
i don't feel as pretty as other girls
or have the best personality
i just feel
ordinary as
like
i dont know
theres nothing special

I say:
I feel the same about myself?
but I've come to the conclusion
that it doesn't matter
you are who you are
there's one thing
confidence baby

be careful there...

lets bend the rules a little bit.

relationship or?

So as much as you may want companionship at this age, remember it's extremely rare you and your partner will last at this age. No one is going to be perfect for you and treat you in a way without a flaw. No one has the perfect relationship either. There's always a fault at this age, or something that doesn't allow for a 10/10 relationship.

You might know a few couples who have what they call the 'perfect' thing going on between them, but lets see how long they last.

God I love girls who dress well.

true?

Freedom?

I think this is a necessary topic to bring up. In philosophy, you will learn about the freedom debate, where some people think that we have no freedom at all, everything in life is pre determined by the events that precede them, but there's another group of people that think everything we do is our choice, we have freedom. Then, there's the people that believe we have freedom but some things are pre determined.

You know what I believe? FUCK you all, stop wasting our time in school teaching us pointless shit, what in God's name is the point in learning about this?
No one can change the world, or the way the world works, so get the fuck over it and move on, do what I do and just live life, because that's all you can fucking do anyway.

for relationships...

Are you in a relationship at the moment?
Really sick of your partner?
Things not going well?
Considering breaking the relationship off?

Well think about this first.
Are you going to break up with this person because you're over them personally?
Or are you going to break up with them because you just want to be single?

Believe it or not, this will make a difference.

I was meant to catch up on some sleep on the holidays, whatever happened to that?

:(

You're close to me from far away...

true story.

No one is perfect, except those that realize their imperfections, embrace them, and move on with their lives.

take a piece of advice (:

this is about a guy who lost his way and never looked back.

:)

hehe

I love guys that flirt in public with girls on Facebook. A girl isn't gonna tell the world she wants you unless she's a slut or she's gonna consider going out with you.
So keep getting barred in public LMAO.

true love or...?

There are many secrets within life. The answer to the question as to why there are so many secrets in life may even be a secret itself. An example of what I think is a secret: true love. What is true love? Does everyone have a true love? No. What about people who are single their whole life? They die single. What about people who get married, have kids, then split, never to talk again? Is that true love? No, it most surely isn't. Or maybe it is. It depends on what the meaning of true love actually is, and that again I think is another secret. In my belief, if there is such thing as true love, then true love is the one person you are destined to be with, the person you will be with, til death do you apart. If there is such thing as true love, then it's pretty clear to me that not everyone has one, and there only way in my opinion for there to be such thing as true love for everyone, is if there's someone who you are given a chance to be with, and you must take that chance in order to be successfull, if not, bad luck. I haven't come to a decision yet as to whether there is such thing though.

hmm.

If I said I want you back I'd be a liar,
there's nothing left of us to long for anymore.
But inside the ashes burns an endless fire,
and every night I can't help reaching out for more.

Drainers!

Everytime I refresh my Facebook home, I see at last one status saying "school drains it" or "this class is sooooo draining"; Facebook itself wouldn't be so draining if it wasn't for people having the same god damn statuses all the time. Be unique!

Life always hurts, there's just different depths of pain within.

what do you think?

My life has changed so much in the past year...

Wow.

quick question for ya.

When you said it was too late, what exactly did you mean is what I wanna know. What prompted you to say it?

I hoped to be your everything, but that doesnt matter anymore

moveeeeeeee theeeeee fuckkkkkkkk onnnnnnnnnnnn.

oiii fucker.

this goes for alot of people; stop acting on Facebook and in front of people like you don't know me cos next time you try and be nice to my face or on MSN in a private convo I'm gonna tell you exactly where to go!

I've lost alot of friends. But to all of my enemies, fuck you.

(:

blogging.

no matter the gap in between your posts, no matter how long you leave your blog, no matter how many times you forget to write something or post something on your blog; if you have a blog and you've posted on it, you're a blogger. If you've posted on someone else's blog, you're a blogger. If you enjoy reading other people's blogs and hope to one day start your own, well, I guess, you're on your way to becoming a blogger.

what do you reckon?

I've never understood the term 'cold hearted' for people. Aren't hearts warm? Because they aren't cold. Blood in our body is warm, and the heart is what pumps this blood, so because in society, this term means to be 'rude, self-scented, disrespectful, unthoughtful, or something along those lines', I don't think it's a good term to use.

it's that SAME lesson in life for everyone

People say that, the way they lived their life was hard, well guess what. There's always hard points in everyone and anyone's life! Even rich people have hard times, deciding on business propositions or what to do with their money at times, and each thing effects us in a different way.
But the ONE lesson that everyone will learn and it does not differ for any single person on this planet, no matter who you are, how you're brought up, or how you live your life; is to not trust anyone.

So do us all a favour, and don't say that you learnt to only trust yourself because of the way you lived life. Everyone learns that lesson. Get the fuck over it.

~Over & out!

drainer man!

why do people start a blog, give up and start a new one, then give up on that one and start a new one? Can't you stay on one webpage? Why the need for constant changes?

No biggie Helina & Yeasmeena for example (Y)

what IF...

What goes up doesn't necessarily have to come down. What goes around doesn't have to come back around either. It's all a matter of the "if" factor and 'if' it's going to happen...

question for the girls

why do some girls talk up guys for nothing?
:S

it's funny how we always talk on msn & Facebook...

but in person you don't even have the decency to say hello.

this is a story about a player who's getting played.

awshieeeeeet


ha!!

anyone can write these days, it's what's in your writing that counts

this is the fucking truth.

Hmm.

there's another girl out there, one for me,


holding the key to my heart, to set me free

there's hidden oppurtunities in everyone's life, it's just upto us to find them and take whatever they contain

just thought this was true on the tram today...

lets play a game...

everyone's got their rules...

writing...

When it comes to other people's writing, I often get confused. When people enjoy my writing, or they compliment my writing, if I look at their writing, I often think they're better. Is this natural? Is it just a lack of confidence? Hmm.

the one...?

What does "the one" mean? Does "the one" mean the person you were 'destined' to be with no matter what? Or does it mean the one person you ever truely loved?

I guess I'll never know.

good song

We're all fucked up, so whatcha wanna do,



Well fucked up me and fucked up you

music

I like to think of music as colours sometimes. Those heavy minimal beats as black and white, and those commercial songs with lots of different types of sound as the colours of the rainbow; simply because the black and white songs all sound alike and while the rainbow coloured songs may sound alike too, they are still very different, and although the black and white songs are different, the scale on which they differ is smaller to the more "colourful" songs.

My opinion...

Females play the game too, they just each have their own way of doing so, as do males.

love...

People might say love is a game. If it's a game, then are there rules? If it's a game, then surely there must be players? Meaning unless you do not believe in love, then you're playing this game too. There's one variable; fairness. Either you play the game unfairly or fairly. But then, you might ask yourself, who does Cliff think he is to tell me how to play? Or, there are no fucking rules! Fuck love!




I dunno...

My quotes...

Whenever something comes up in my head, I've just thought of noting them down... so here they are tell me what you think! I swear on my life I wrote all of them myself!


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"You can't keep everything on a leash, you have to learn to set things free."

"Live today like there is no tomorrow."

"The first and second laughs aren't the best laughs, it's the last laugh that counts."

"During life you open new doors everyday, make sure they're worth being followed through."

"When you're older, the hundreds of friends you have will turn to 5 or 6, make sure they're worth keeping."

"Life's like a gift, open it and see what's inside."

"There'll be times when you wanna give up on something bad, but pushing on for the best is what makes us stronger."

"There's only one way you can see the future, and that is by living the future."

"If you choose the right path in life, life will choose the right path for you."

"Girls, money and friends all got one thing in common; they all come and go; but family, that's forever."

"True love is like a deathwish, you can only survive if the end never comes."

"There's a good piece to everything, make sure you take it when you're moving on."

"Sometimes it hurts to know that life goes on, memories fade, and even the smallest thing at the time will haunt you forever onwards."

"Looks may pull someone in, but it's personality keeps them there."

"Life's a game, play to win."

"Life isn't about anything, there's nothing to it, just live it."

"Life always hurts, there's just different depths of pain within."

"Unique goes as far as you allow it to take you."

"I'm not giving up, I'm letting you go"

Feel free to use them if you like them, just credit me yeah.

laters x

life's a game, play to win.

true?

Any guy can put on the nice guy act when they want a girl and you know it's true

truth..

Old view on life

Throughout my life I've learnt alot and I've experienced a hell of alot more. One of the main things is that you never trust anyone, the only person you can trust is yourself no matter how close you are with that person or how much you've been through with them. Sometimes you make bad decisions or do the wrong thing, it doesn't necessarily make you a bad person, it means you've made a mistake in life, so you put it behind you and move the fuck on. I've learnt that you can't always hold onto everything in life, some things are meant to be, some aren't meant to be, and just because you give up on something it doesn't mean you're a pussy, but it shows that you've got the strength to let things go. During life you open new doors everyday, so you may as well make sure they're worth being followed through. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel. I haven't cried in 4 years, but I'm beginning to believe that 'perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see life with a clearer view again'. You know if you have a positive attitude towards life, then life will have a positive attitude towards you. One day your life will flash before your eyes, so make sure it's worth watching; Live today like there is no tomorrow. Don't be sad that something's over for good either, be glad it happened. Be thankful for the good things in life. There's no point in you walking into my life if you're just going to walk straight back out, is there? No. And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count... It's the life in your years.

gah!

I crave every hour of sleep these days.

off to bed I go

Haha

C'mon Hamilton fucking win this!!

Every man

Every man either plays the game and wins, or dies trying...


Some play it different than others, but this does not give us a reason to discriminate against them, because there are no "official" rules, and as always, everyone has their own opinion, meaning there are alot of different outcomes.

You gotta have balls sometimes.

To be TOGETHER, you've got TO-GET-HER.

looks may pull someone in, but it's personality that keeps them there.

I was on the tram today, and I was thinking, as it's a typical thing that occurs for most people, when you're bored, on a tram, or waiting, etc; so it just came to mind.

Last dance

You were innocent, till I proved you guilty,

Even though it kills me,

The truth is better then the lie

No going back, I've reached my final verdict,

You had my heart and hurt it,

But I won't let you see me cry.


This is our last dance...Our last dance.
This is our last dance...Our last dance.

GOOD SONG! :)

For the guys

Never make the mistake of persuing close girl 'friends' before you've established a relationship, because if you happen to fall for one of those girls, and they already see you as a friend, nothing more nothing less; then chances are, you fucked up. More importantly though, it's more common for a girl who attracts you to pick whether you stay as friends or take things to a new level, and once you've established a relationship then the rest of your friends won't matter because you'll have your girl and you won't bother trying with your girl 'friends' because you know you don't want anything from them, unless you're one of them player motherfuckers ahahahahah or unless one of those girls is a slapppppppppppa.











laters

The perfect girl

The perfect girl is a million things. The perfect girl is the one who makes you laugh, the one who can make you smile no matter what, the one who's always going to be by your side, the one who doesn't judge, the one who understands how a guy feels, the one who can accept things how they are and move the fuck on, the one who can sort things out maturely without causing a big scene, the one who actually means something to the man, the one who can persuade the man, the one who he can't close his eyes to sleep without speaking to or telling her he loves her.

For the girls; written last year.

This one's for the girlies. You know what's funny, most of you all think that a guy should be always making the first move yeah? Well, most guys aren't sure. Most guys will sit and wonder, or kill themselves mentally trying to figure out whether they're going to get rejected and so fourth. Make sure they feel comfertable, then you'll see results and see them making more of a move. A girl will always succeed by making sure the guy feels like he belongs with her or making him feel happy about being with her at the time. When you wear too much make-up, you might think you look hotter, but you really don't. If a guy tells you that you look good, then you look good. You should feel confident about it. He's not just saying it to get into your pants, because when a guy tells a girl they don't need make-up to impress, then they're telling the truth believe me. Another thing, if you can make a guy laugh and smile, then you're already on your way to success. Never try too hard. If you're keen, then try not to show it and look obsessive, even if you are, try to keep it low, ignoring a guy's probably the best and worst thing you can ever do. Ignoring a guy is good for you because it will get to them, anyone hates being ignored, especially when it's a guy and a girl or vice versa; It'll appear to them as if you don't care and you're not interested, and you could secretly feel the opposite way. The negative side of this is that if a guy feels that he can't win, and that you're too good for him or so on, guys tend to get to a breaking point much quicker, and they'll often give up. But there's one more thing! Be CAREFUL of the way you speak to a guy! If you're gonna sit there going along with his flirting and his love you bullshit, you're gonna have to do one of either: Go along with it and have no action; thus resulting in you being what is more commonly known as a 'cocktease', or you can have the balls to do it, you're not a slut just coz you got with 5 guys or you've rooted... I know women aren't like this when they're keen, and some guys are different, but be careful because it's always a possibility with a guy, especially when his mates tell him that "there's plenty of fish in the sea!".

Trust

Most people in this world can't keep a secret forever, and you always end up trusting someone with something in your life, so that's most likely how you're going to learn this lesson; yet imagine what a different world we as a whole would live in if people could actually have the decency to keep secrets and have trust... But then again there's obsticles in life, such as who to hope won't reveal your secret, or when this person will eventually let your secret out, but once you overcome these obsticles, there's only one lesson that will come out of it; to trust yourself and no one else.

Hmm

I am myself. Stuck inside this nightmare that is more commonly known as reality, or paradise to some; and just like every nightmare, I die.

Hello again

Hi everyone, here I am again, living my life, locked up once again. Do I want a girlfriend? Or do I not? Do you ever get those days where you sit there wondering what to do with your life? Or those depressing "I want a girlfriend moods"?
Well, I do too!
To be quite frank with you all I have not the slightest idea in which my love life is headed, I for one would like to know but it's yet to be proven as to whether one can predict the future or not and having said that it wouldn't be common anyways so I can kiss that one goodbye...
I guess I'll just be taking life as it comes, I can take advice, but I cannot take orders.
I hate it when people think they can control me, and I'm pretty sure you feel the same way too.
I've also got this fascination with asking questions, it's like my mind feels incomplete until I've asked every single question that my mind requires to have an answer to;
My one desire in life, is to enjoy it.
I guess this is my spot to vent, my little place where I can voice out every single thought in my head right now, I'll even mention how my head's spinning as I type this, and how my mind's travelling at a million miles an hour (or at least that's what it feels like)...
I'm gonna wrap it up here because I need to get to bed soon, I've become an insomniac or something or the sort, and that's merely one of my problems in life, but it's one of the most unhealthiest I tell you.

til next time,
x

Welcome to my life

First of all, is there such thing as true love, or destiny? Such as you're 'meant' to fall in love with a certain person; or you're meant to die on a certain date in a certain way? Which brings me to my next question, what's it like on the other side? Is there even another side? What happens when you die? Is there such thing as heaven or hell? Will there even be such thing as 'you' once you die? Do ghosts exist? Will you be able to do anything once you die and leave this world? Or will your soul simply disappear meaning there's nothing left of you, no thoughts no opinions no life, nothing?
Don't you wish you could predict the future? Just to see how things pan out? But then you think, fuck, if I predict the future and I know everything that's going to happen, where's the fun in life? Life won't be special, you'll know everything, there'll be nothing to look forward to or predict!

I'll leave it here as I go to bed,
x

tip for the girls again

If you're gonna bar a guy on msn... Deadset be straight out.